The Lost Image !!!!

In the sands of time, I have lost Myself..

My prolonged agony doesn't come to an end,

Like a book of mystery kepy in shelf

By chance or is it ongoing trend ?

Like ash my soul was dusted into pieces,

As a piece of cloth with so many creases...

I dig my image in treaures of life,

To find no traces in it alive....

Voices of cries that reach no ears,

Pain & hurt that bring no Tears !!!!!

"The Society UNSEEN"

Hey, think I need to get back to my writing spree … took a real long break by now
What’s the topic of this write up????? What should be the topic I am writing about …

Whoa whoa whoa, I don have a subject, a topic... But yet I have just started off typing these keys on the board
Expecting to either get the best or worst or nothing out of me …

Let’s start

It was one dark night when I was on my way back from station road in Pune to Kothrud the place where I stay…

It was 2330 hours … We do get transportation at that time here in Pune … but I preferred walking,

I don know what strikes me to walk, but I love it … the distance was mere 10KM...

… There’s this shortcut which goes thru a commercial place in Pune, Laxmi road very crowded all day for right things and all night for wrong things …

Hey people no no no … this is still going in the right direction … Just go on reading... Now I know, what can be the title of his story …

“The Society UNSEEN”

Throughout my write up, I am going to make sure, whoever there reading this gets into what the title exactly means…

The walk started from the bus stop of Pune station and I really don know, where all did I walk by in the coming hours,

But trust me this was an experience one would personally never want to be in … but when one see something like this, would feel from deep within …

What, at the end of all I am giving to my life??…

Okay in the first mile walk, I was passing by the areas, where you see homes as big or small as your Balcony for sure … or to the max the fresh room in our luxurious office…

These are the people below middle class or as said the people of third group of income,

They have dreams in there eyes (not that they were sleepy), but could see a feel of want, kehte hain naa bus thoda aur( as they say a lil bit more from life) …

There were children’s playing, females doing there dishes and men having chat after long day labor work, having a puff with their neighbors …

There were exchange of sights between me and them and all I could was, give a slenderest smile,

Moving on I came through the very famous and busy street of Pune, Bhudwarpeth in Laxmi road (Those in Pune would surely know this place)…

I would not have had been surprised if I would have seen this rush during day,

Because, it’s quite obvious with the kind of shopping there during day times, its very famous for shopping ….but 11.30 … Too late to shop …

I then realized, I was in the wrong place at a very wrong time and surrounded by lot many wrong people …

Hey hang on … did I just say wrong people?? … Oooopps I am sorry!!!!! Nope they are no wrong people … they are right people … but situation have brought them there
into a wrong place…

Now since I was there and it was always a wish of mine to talk to those people (the sex workers/ pros /the other gender whatever names they the society have given them) to know about them in their personal level...

Strike one … a badly dress lady, quite an aged one, asked me whether I was interested… I was dam embarrassed then …

I said “Nahi nahi main nahi, Main bus apne ghar jaa raha hoon”(No Not Me, I am just returning back home)

Walked a bit ahead there was this lady, walking towards me and the lady one who first approached me …

She yelled out “DIDI kya hua, chokra nahi aaya kya”(Sister what happened, guy not interested)

I had a thought … anyways its 2345 hours, they were out business and there were not many left walking through...

So I started off with a very short planned conversation, which went on for 25 minutes... Positive, yup it was 25 minutes …

Started off with, “pause… big pause”

Believe me they care a dam as to, who u are? So there was no introduction … after some taunts and looks of theirs to me …

I broke my silence of 2 and half minutes…

And spoke out with sense of confusing words, which I still didn’t understand, but jus spoke then …

I said rather asked “Aap kab se”

This was asked to the first lady who called me upon then …

She laughed with a paan in her mouth and said “Kyun jaanna chahta hain re tu, likhega kya”( y do u wanna know??? will you write???)

I was like “Nahi kya pataa kabhi likh bhi doon”(no, but you never know, I may write sometime)…

They were getting accustomed to me enquiring about there life … and they had no probs … Kewl for me …

This moment, there were 5 of them and a single me …

2 were real young and others had for sure crossed there 30s (thirties)

I just asked then the same thing “Aap logon ke saath aisa kya hua, ki aapko yahaan par aana padaa”(What happened with you that you had to come to this?)

One started off like a rebel saying … by the way she was one of the third sex …

She said “hum log yahaan rehte nahi hain, bus shukra, shani ko aate hain” … (We don’t stay here; we come only on Friday and Saturday)

It was just about her… She has her earnings through the trains running between Pune to lonavala...

Other one was a married woman left by her husband there long back…

They said it’s not matter of their choice that they were there but for their earnings they were there …

I had to leave sooner it was getting real late by now for me to walk till my flat…(but I was fine being late for once atleast for this eye opener and personal experience, till date only heard off),

One of them told me, they were not interested and cried initially but they feel secured here than in there earlier life….

They had great bonding with each other, they were each other’s strength and,

When I asked how government is fighting it out, they responded saying some NGO’s and women welfare people do visit them regularly to fight for their rights.

Was happy and content atleast something was happening to save these people from this dark side of life where they stay …

“THEY DO EARN BUT THEY BURN, they burn from within and they want their freedom”

I was stunned and all through my way back I was thinking, I always curse as to where I am, what in life I am doing, what the f is happening with my life ,,, but what about

These people who are a part of our society they have all rights... They have rights to breathe in this world where we live..

All around us we see people, some are happy, some are not, some have money, some don’t … some care, some dare … some smile, some crib…

Wherever we are ….whatever we do … we are always unhappy with life …

Hey folks,

We, in this society don’t want to raise our brows to all this, we are having our good earnings (I know, not all that good but still)

I say, I am not giving justification to my life, but I am somewhere in that comfort zone where not many people are right now in…

It’s always known that youth is the face of future/tomorrow,

When is that future/tomorrow going to arrive????

When are we actually going to step out of our comfort zone, and do something that is expected from US???

We say we are not doing what we wanted to do in life (the reason is sense of secured life we are in)

Yes friends even I am included in this list,

Barriers need to be broken,

One productive step for the socirty by you in your life may and will surely bring about a revolution If not to the world, but somewhere for Yo”U”.. for sure

“Kitna bhi paalo, kitna bhi karlo, saala kum pad hi jaata hain” (whatever you do, whatever you get, you always feel dissatisfied)

Life is really beautiful and wherever you are, there is a reason behind it ….

Just try finding that reason …

This read for you might be a WASTE OF Four & Half MINUTE of your life or may not make any difference…

But if et’al, it somewhere does make you feel what I wanted to convey I will feel content….

I am no pro in writing but no write up goes in vein ….

Am still finding my reason in this world, hope all of you find yours… God bless you … Take care..


Signing off again,


About Me: I am Nimesh S Sharma, a proud Indian, fighting hard for my reason of existence here in this beautiful World

Kucch proverbs, Kucch baatein !!!!

• Life Is Beautiful only if you want it to be
  
• To make others happy never forget u've a life too,
  
• You came on earth cryin but depends on how u make ur way out of earth
  
• Don think bout the moment think bout the time after tat moment
  
• Decisions r imp but outcome is all tat proves, whether u succeeded or not
  
• Give urself sometime in the day , u may do wonders in tat time
  
• Remember appearances really don matter , true heart does
  
• Care a damn bout others at times ok
  
• Believe in time than any other thing in life time talks don't let it go!!
  
• Last pointer, think bout sum1 who can make u 4get everything be it family friends enemy aliens….
  anyone n then implement 1st 9 points ...

Ehsaas

Dil ki jo baat hain zabaan pe nahi aati,
zabaan pe jo aajaye woh dil ki nahi reh jaati.
Karta hoon tumse pyaar yeh keha nahi paata hoon
jaane kis baat se ghabrata hoon....
Kardogi tum inkaar tho seha nahi paaunga,
ay jaaneman tumhare bina reha nahi paaunga.
Tum chali jaaogi tho tumhari yaadein yaad aayengi
un yaadon mein aankhon se aansoon aa jaayenge lekin tum nahi aaogi
Naa apnaaogi mere pyaar ko tho kaise bhi jee loonga,
lekin tumse juda hokar tho mar bhi nahi sakoonga
Haan karta hoon tumse pyaar
Tumhise Pyaar, Aur Sirf tumhise pyaar !!!!!!

Kya Galti thi !!!!!!!

Hey Aaj mein tumhe ek kahani sunata hoon …
Ek ladki ki ….woh ladki bahut hi family oriented girl thi, hameshaa usne apne parivaar ke liye socha unki khushiyon ke baare mein socha … Hamesha.. Tab tak woh ladki har kisi ke liye sarv gunn sampan type ki ek ladki thi, usne bahut kucch kiya life mein, ghar ke liye n apne educational life ke liye.. life mein bhi bahut serious thi, apni personal life ke baare mein naa sochke, bus apne degree education pe concentrate karke, unn sab logon ko khushi di, jinko who apna parivaar maanti …. Iss dauraan woh ek normal teenage gal ki tarah to rahi hi nahi, bus aage ka sochti rahi, aage aane wali khushiyon ke liye usne apne kai saal waste kar diye,
According to her usko sab cheez late se milti thi, fair enough, bahut log hain aise … Woh apno ko chodkar ek nai jagah par aai … usse darr lagta tha uss darr ko chodke yahaan akeli rehati thi …
Uss mein ek baat thi woh jeena jaanti thi… jo usse theek lagta tha …wohi woh karti thi ….
Har pal mein khusiyaan doondthi bhi thi … But as said woh abhi bhi aane wale pal ke khushi ka intezaar kar rahi thi.
Uss mein ek burri ya acchi baat yeh thi ki who sirf apno ke baare mein sochti rahi aur apne baare mein sochna bhool gayi Woh yeh bhool gayi ki uski ek zindagi hain … ki uska parivaar hai lekin sirf 6 logon ka, na ki balki 60 logon ka …. But then the prob came when she finished her training she already was 26 27 then …and as usual at her place family were lookin for a guy ( Prince charming) but they were unable to coz she deserve a good one no aira ghaira nathu khaira … So they kept on rejecting
She just wanted a guy to be more educated than her … fair enough again
Then she met this guy very talented with quite a dynamic personality … who was very much respected in his office and she was also in same company same floor with him … They got to know each other had that respect tuning understanding … which made them feel, ya we can think about this relation to be a long term one … Mind you it was not love and all it was was just understanding between 2 people who were mature enough to know what they were doing then …
Back to this gal ... we all know by reading the first part of the story that how this gal is … PARIVAR parivar parivar and all...
So like a sweet daughter to the family she went to her parents and told them everything about him and the approach he had … Which then went haywire…
People misunderstood her and all her favourite relatives went against her…
No issues …
But she knew she would not go against her family … fair enough again …
She made it clear that if she would get married to him only by the wish of her family … …
But in this process family were in dual mind, they just couldn't stop searchin for one better guy than him …… they kept their search on and even didn't reply to this guy thinking ki try tho kar hi lete hain … mil gaya tho subaanallah warna yeh ladka jiske baare mein beti ne kaha hain who tho intezaar kar hi lega … They took him for granted … ..
Unhe laga ki yaar yeh humari beti ko force kar raha hain etc etc …
paraye desh mein hain humari beti Parivaar ka pyaar jag utha … Bahut doondhe risthe in logon ne lekin no luck aur ek galat baat yeh karte rahe ki astrology jisse unke superstitious mind aur strong hota raha …
Woh ladki bheech mein pissti rahi … Usse pata nahi chal raha tha ki usski zindagi mein kya hone wala hain …
( I still have one doubt woh apni khusiyan jo postpone kar rahi thi , woh usse ab tak nahi mili tho kyun nahi ji apni zindagi kab milegi woh khushi )
Back to this gal …
She had almost gone into depression … she lost her peace of mind she couldn't think anything about her present which she never thought … she never could think about her future which was very unclear …her relatives kept on saying to her stuff that they had no right to say…
This was the best thing that happened as she gotta know true value of her relatives …….
Now she has just 6 people in her mind ... the 5 people at home and one who has left almost everything for this gal (that’s the Guy) … She was shattered in all ways she had no direction but still she couldn't change her attitude right ... so she still continued to be the best in her professional life … her ongoings were still very strong (no doubt abt the same) …
she had a smile but behind that there were sorrow of her future and ignorance of her present and the past she still didn realize that, ki how important it was to concentrate abt the moment and the life after that moment ... teenage went in doing things and being best daughter for her family and she was still postponing her happiness
(I would like to add here ki she didn't know then ki khushiyon ko talaash nahi kiya jaata, unne batora jaate hain )
Anyways she still is waiting for something to happen which doesn happen jus like that you need try, trying is the word …
Hey Now you must be wondering what then would have had happened to that gal??? did she marry him??? did her parents agree?? did she get that happiness in her life??? Sorry to say but no is the answer,
She was deserted, her life was playing games with her she was forced to do what she never thot abt in life … but you know what she had to do it … Superstitious mind made them play with her life, never even thinking wat would this soul be going thru … you must be thinking what happened in such a way that would ruin her soul she was forced to marry and break that marriage with idol ..
Yes my friend ... Hindu culture and beliefs makes us do certain things which our genX would never even think of. But she was the best daughter anyone can get and she kept on proving this all her life but did not get anything in return …
You must be wondering what that hero would be doing all this time… he still was waiting and he had nothing else to do … he still was waiting …
Time passed by and so did her life ….
And in between she came across a guy, who was a dude, smart, handsome and what not yaar … They had a formal relation in beginning days which became stronger and stronger as days passed by …
He wanted to show her the life which she wanted to see, he just wanted her smile and her happiness which she was postponing since a long time … …
he would do every that thing that she would just think off … she just needed to think and that would be done by this guy, not to mention he was just too sweet and awesome … Blink of an eye and he would be in front of her …
You all must be thinking if he was all this good and great … why don't these 2 get together …
I will tell yo”U”
“Har kisiko mukammil jahaan nahi milta, kisiko zameen kisiko aasmaan nahi milta”
And they actually didn't want to .. some relations are best left unsaid and unspoken … Good and beautiful was their relation …
They had different direction and they both wanted ki the other one stays happy … And that guy has his own battle to be won …. He believes in the moment, lives for each and every moment loves himself to the core and also loves to Love …
No talks about this guy in the story, you can think him to be one angel who came for her for a short time and will be out sooner, with sooner I mean till end of his life …
Okies now what, ya she is happy with this little angel guy but till when, she has less time and the most crucial decision will be coming out from her in this time …
She has to decide what she needs to chose Did I say the guy with whom marriage talks were going on is one great person and they for sure can lead a great life ahead … She has to decide and now you there tell me what should this gal do???
Choose her parents happiness … even they like this guy but caste is the prob …
She would be getting the best in laws seriously everyone knows this …
They really do like this gal, everything is real fine …
Problem is gal’s parents love the gal a lot and they just want to get her the best which they are not getting….. But still they love her they say go ahead with the decision they say we are with you, but just by saying things don work … Kadam badhaane padte hain …
Jo unse nahi badh rahe … She has to handle every single thing here … parents, him and his parents and herself …
And I am sure she will …
Yo”u” must be wondering as to why the title title is “Kya Galti Thi “ … Hope you still remember that lil angel .. ???!!!!
Yes she once asked him what was her fault that she is going thru all this … for which she even said that he is not true friend, to not give sincere reply …
But I ask what reply could he have had given when he knows there was really nothing wrong from her side …
Her only mistake was thinking about the future happiness which never came …. Today she is very famous in her professional life, she has name, money, everything … But what next ????
Yes the decision, the decision of the lifetime is still pending there …
You Must be wondering as to why is there no ending in the Story,
Movies and Novels have Endings, Not Life ... This story is about a life and Story ends when life Ends ...
Note from the Author :
Hey there whosoever reading this … I do not know what you are thinking of the characters of this Story …
But they are the people You see in your day to day life. You just need to feel the moment and think abt the moment …
And decisions, “yes” You really need to fly high to make them true …
This was a Story which may make you feel that you have seen something similar in your day to day life …
Time Talks Don’t Let It Go !!!!